when i was 3 i insisted on having this picture taken
Good taste in men start at age 3
The first time since February 2012, I can actually say that I am fully and completely over the first. I have semi-dated a few guys and it never felt right, ever. I am happy to move on to whoever steps forward and makes me feel butterflys.
I went on a couple of dates with a guy in october last year, and during our first date, he said that he must have spoiled me for other guys.
Reality is, he didnt. My very first actual date was one to remember. I met this guy named Haakon on a Karaoke tuesday, and hit it off. We then proceeded to make plans to go learn how to dance on Friday at this place that we heard of that had free swing dance lessons. On the faithful day, went to the local bar and met up with him. I met a few of his friends, and then after a little while, went and learned how to swing dance. That day made it easier for me to like him as we had the same taste in vehicles. Afterwards, we went to the popular country bar and two-stepped. (back then, i wasnt the best) We had a lot of fun. And as the night ended, I just happened to sleep over at his place. Nothing happened, and he didnt try anything on me. It was nice.
What I just wrote was and still is, my perfect date. I will always have memories of him. In the end, I knew that it wouldnt last and started to back off a bit to lessen the blow of him leaving. However, the day that he had to go, I felt more than I have ever felt of anybody. I didnt cry about it until October of that year (which was about 6 months after he left).
He will forever be my first love. I am just scared to feel like that again.
In my entire life, there have only been 2 times where I was entirely speechless. Both times were from an old friend saying blatently out loud that he was hot. I would still not be used to it now.